"phew, for a minute there..."

its nearly april.

i had a test just now, and once again i am afraid i bombed it.

i have a test two hours from now. which is very exciting.

presently there are no words to describe the tumult in my head. slowly the medication numbs me to a dull roar, soon i will be tamed, and eventually extinct.

i watch people. as much as i try to feel like i belong to the species, i can't. their faces make clear the vast, vaccuous landscapes of their minds.

we all are dying.

we all are.