Sunday, December 30, 2007

.s.u.b.-conscious in full effect

(quickly...)

i had a dream about a group of people who were put together to build a community in a reality-show type fashion. two individuals stand out; i know their faces so well i would recognize them in a crowd. one is a young man who acts as a father to two teenage boys, but is rough and unkind with them. the other is an old man who walks with a tall wooden cane, and who gets sad when he sees the boys mistreated by their father figure. he becomes so sad that he decides to end his life, so he publicly burns himself, but the fire doesn't take quickly so he holds his smoldering hands to his face until it slowly starts to dissolve.

it disturbed me so much i decided to wake up.

thoughts???

Friday, December 28, 2007

12.28

(I'm dancing)

we got ourselves a freaking sweet apartment by a river and a health food store.

we can walk to these places.

....

mostly this is great because mabyl gets her own room again. she can run around the house without getting yelled at for touching things. this means family pictures back on the wall. a new shower curtain!!!!

this is the best thing ever. i hope this is the start of a good 2008. i will have to consult with my new deck :::



yeh, it's serious. it was my xmas present from derrick.

my xmas present to me is a new tattoo.

stay tuned!!

Sunday, December 23, 2007

oh, well

i sincerely detest xmas. so much, in fact, that i refuse to dignify the "holiday" by it's proper name.

so anyway...

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

fire by scantron



i would have imagined my professor would have said ANYTHING about a test coming up AS WELL AS a point-heavy paper that was due, seeing as i feverishly emailed her all last week while i was freakishly sick. her respone to my onslaughts was "Thanks for the update!"
NOT to mention the syllabus is almost 100% unrelaible, with no calender or chapter guide.

now i have to come up with a fantastic amount of b.s. to appease everyone-- i dont get it. i keep my head out of the clouds now more than ever at school and yet i always feel totally unprepared and am missing things-- but then when i reach out to my instructors for help they hand me cotton fluff and it gets us no where.

IM NOT READY TO GET SOME BULLSHIT BAD GRADES BECAUSE OF SOME BEAURAUCRATIC OVERSIGHT!

damnit.

i'm a straight-A kid.

im so ANGRY

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

didn't see the train that hit me

i feel awful.

ben said "your energy is non-existant"

today, too.

i have so much to do. i've put all my faith in zicam.

and i need more sleep, bleh

wow

Friday, December 7, 2007

you're in my head...

i wonder about my wandering toward you,
it's unstoppable-- but
not that i would want to....

a drawing
a bridge upping
a south call
to autumn's fall
where we first met...

hours is what you get,
adoration, too

i meant what i confess
and more
to you


night time
dark time
our time

our time

what little we have to share

crusts of bread
and knots in thread
and still we meet
there

night time
dark time
your time
and mine

i wait
like a wolf
wounded and
wet
and silently kept
as your post

Thursday, December 6, 2007

be a citizen

these are the official INS questions on the citizenship exam.
it seems pretty easy, but i suppose i'm biased....

1. What are the colors of our flag?

2. How many stars are there in our flag?

3. What color are the stars on our flag?

4. What do the stars on the flag mean?

5. How many stripes are there in the flag?

6. What color are the stripes?

7. What do the stripes on the flag mean?

8. How many states are there in the Union?


9. What is the 4th of July?

10. What is the date of Independence Day?

11. Independence from whom?

12. What country did we fight during the Revolutionary War?

13. Who was the first President of the United States?

14. Who is the President of the United States today?

15. Who is the vice-president of the United States today?

16. Who elects the President of the United States?

17. Who becomes President of the United States if the President should die?

18. For how long do we elect the President?

19. What is the Constitution?

20. Can the Constitution be changed?

21. What do we call a change to the Constitution?

22. How many changes or amendments are there to the Constitution?

23. How many branches are there in our government?

24. What are the three branches of our government?

25. What is the legislative branch of our government?

26. Who makes the laws in the United States?

27. What is the Congress?

28. What are the duties of Congress?

29. Who elects the Congress?

30. How many senators are there in Congress?

31. Can you name the two senators from your state?

32. For how long do we elect each senator?

33. How many representatives are there in Congress?

34. For how long do we elect the representatives?

35. What is the executive branch of our government?

36. What is the judiciary branch of our government?

37. What are the duties of the Supreme Court?

38. What is the supreme court law of the United States?

39. What is the Bill of Rights?

40. What is the capital of your state?

41. Who is the current governor of your state?

42. Who becomes President of the United States if the President and the vice-president should die?

43. Who is the Chief Justice of the Supreme Court?

44. Can you name thirteen original states?

45. Who said, "Give me liberty or give me death."?

46. Which countries were our enemies during World War II?

47. What are the 49th and 50th states of the Union?

48. How many terms can the President serve?

49. Who was Martin Luther King, Jr.?

50. Who is the head of your local government?

51. According to the Constitution, a person must meet certain requirements in order to be eligible to become President. Name one of these requirements.

52. Why are there 100 Senators in the Senate?

53. Who selects the Supreme Court justice?

54. How many Supreme Court justice are there?

55. Why did the Pilgrims come to America?

56. What is the head executive of a state government called?

57. What is the head executive of a city government called?

58. What holiday was celebrated for the first time by the Americans colonists?

59. Who was the main writer of the Declaration of Independence?

60. When was the Declaration of Independence adopted?

61. What is the basic belief of the Declaration of Independence?

62. What is the national anthem of the United States?

63. Who wrote the Star-Spangled Banner?

64. Where does freedom of speech come from?

65. What is a minimum voting age in the United States?

66. Who signs bills into law?

67. What is the highest court in the United States?

68. Who was the President during the Civil War?

69. What did the Emancipation Declaration do?

70. What special group advises the President?

71. Which President is called the "Father of our country"?

72. What Immigration and Naturalization Service form is used to apply to become a naturalized citizen?

73. Who helped the Pilgrims in America?

74. What is the name of the ship that brought the Pilgrims to America?

75. What are the 13 original states of the U.S. called?

76. Name 3 rights of freedom guaranteed by the Bill of Rights.

77. Who has the power to declare the war?

78. What kind of government does the United States have?

79. Which President freed the slaves?

80. In what year was the Constitution written?

81. What are the first 10 amendments to the Constitution called?

82. Name one purpose of the United Nations?

83. Where does Congress meet?

84. Whose rights are guaranteed by the Constitution and the Bill of Rights?

85. What is the introduction to the Constitution called?

86. Name one benefit of being citizen of the United States.

87. What is the most important right granted to U.S. citizens?

88. What is the United States Capitol?

89. What is the White House?

90. Where is the White House located?

91. What is the name of the President's official home?

92. Name the right guaranteed by the first amendment.

93. Who is the Commander in Chief of the U.S. military?

94. Which President was the first Commander in Chief of the U.S. military?

95. In what month do we vote for the President?

96. In what month is the new President inaugurated?

97. How many times may a Senator be re-elected?

98. How many times may a Congressman be re-elected?

99. What are the 2 major political parties in the U.S. today?

100. How many states are there in the United States today?

results show

healthy.

my mac is in the shop, and my hard drive is lost forever. DAMN!!!

friday morning may bring about a change or another week of waiting... and i wait always

i am procrastination at its finest.

Tuesday, December 4, 2007

hope?????

don't leave me, hard drive.....

we've only just begun....